black notebook

ME: [10/17/11]

breakfast with Xan2 @ Jollibee; 7:05am

-zanjj

i love you!!

spending time with Xan2 @ home..

made lunch

cleaned the dishes

washed the dishes

watched a movie

cuddled with her

kissed her

hugged her

slept with her (..zzz)

adventure time!

played minesweeper (she lost and i won!)

eating dinner [future tense :)]

buying sundae for her and her family

go home

wait until i meet her again..

HER: [10/31/11]

spent the entire day @janzu's place -alone :|

cant wait for her to arrive >.<

i love having breakfast with her..

it's probably one of the things that I'll miss when she's gone :(

ME: [10/22/11]

missing her :(

[10/24/11]

waking up next to her has never been this good.

eating brunch with you..

"sundae" afternoon :P

~cuddle session~

had another great day with you!

P.S. i love you..

-zanjj

[10/25/11]

took her home from school

helped her with her homework

thinking of her..

-zanjj

[10/29/11]

had lunch @ casa verde

date night at teriyaki boy

cuddle mode at home

took her home

watched L word :)

cuddled all night

-zanjj

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sorry for disappointing you hundreds of times..

how stupid of me.

wonderpig+batpig 5ever!!

joe brooks-someday, apple, world at our feet

jason reeves- helium hearts, save my heart

i love your scent.. especially when we kiss..

and when i hug you..

I LOVE YOU!!

and if i could, i would asdfghkj

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[12/8/11]

a few more weeks, and i'll be back in Surigao again.. I'm starting to miss you more than i usually do.

I'm going to miss your hands, and how they would perfectly fit into mine. I'm going to miss your smile, your laugh and how it would always make me feel better. Your eyes, and the way you would stare at me. I'm going to miss sleeping next to you, keeping you warm, hugging you all night long.Stealing kisses from you (Yes! i steal kisses from you! :P), your scent..

well i guess i'll just have to wait a couple of weeks/days/months :|

nonetheless I'm excited to see you again!

-zanjj

[12/9/11]

for some unexpected reason, i got the chance to be with you today. it put a smile on my face, knowing that i still got another chance to be with you again..

i am so happy, being able to see your face. and i'll get the chance to hold you close in my arms tonight. I love watching you smile, and i'm savoring every moment of it..

crying cuz im gonna miss you so much..

-zanjj

[12/10/11]

waking up next to has never been this good. the way the morning light shines, and sets your face aglow, beautiful.. Slept all morning, we did. And frankly we wouldn't have done it any other way, don't you agree?

Very late lunch at KFC. And then i took you home. i was a short notice but, at least i get to spend time with you.

another chance to sleep right next to you. (Thank you, God)

[12/11/11]

Went to papa kit's with your family. Had an okay time. Atleast i get to spend time with you. it's better than nothing. too bad we didn't so to church today. :( but it's alright, just don't forget to pray everyday. :)

when i was my bed, i immediately thought of you. the fixed bed (which i don't usually have. i only have a clean bed whenever you visit me)

i guess i'll be sleeping alone tonight.

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[pardon for the redundancy. but each and one of them are written on different days, just so you know]

[02/07/12]

i have never felt so alone in my entire life.

i guess i miss you so much. im currently playing songs that reminds me of us. wishing you we're here. being able to talk to you even for a meagre amount of time gives me bandaids for my heart.

a while ago. i was stuck outside star gazing while the song yellow by coldpay played repeat on my nonexisting ipod, i can't help but sing along. the moon was big and bright, bright enough to light the unlit path that i took while i was walking alone in silence. you're always on my mind, and that's inevitable, i won't deny that.

things to do

-buy spray paint,

-look for used folders and s***

-train (break every bone in my body)

-play with cutter... and folder

-buy sleeping pills (having a hard time sleeping)

-go to ER

-listen to songs about shit and stuff

-delete blogs

-stay away from the internet

-live or die

no one gives a shit! :)

i was thinking of you. i know what's you're thinking, i know! i should buy new shoes. hihi i will soon

i miss you btw :(

a bruise that i intend to make

rather than just hurting the person i love, i'd rather hurt myself. (it was my fault anyway)

I punched the wall and hurt my hand just to get the anger off my chest, because my pride got high. (clearly the injury was not too serious, but it hurt a bit)

just wondering

my sister gave me this. not much of a rocky road person, but hey! at least it's free haha

while i was about to open the free ice cream, i noticed this:

hahahaha then some crazy thing popped out of my head saying "they should put this on a condom" :))

anyway, was'nt able to finish it tho (the ice cream i mean). so i gave it to my sister.

that's how they roll

spending the afternoon with the twins.

ahhh my little picasso(s)

random!

was practicing(hope you like it)

treasure!! (note to self)

i guess that would be the word that would explain it, beside from laughing at me for weirdly pronouncing the words. i eat my words! i get it! but that's not the point. i have gathered these words today to describe a soul that's so dear to me. she's like the title above this post! and i wouldn't want her any other way. she's like medicine, she makes me feel better when im down (especially her hugs and kisses). and not just that! she makes me smile, makes me laugh, me feel tingly inside, makes me want to cook, makes me want to sing, almost everything! to me, she was a wake up call. not like an alarm clock or anything but somewhat like an epiphany, of everything. she helps me see the unseen like a light on a misty night. yeah, i don't want to be too dramatic but i just want to say that i am lucky to have her. this will serve as a note to myself, that i must not let her go. she's a very special girl, so don't waste her love. and don't forget the lessons you've learned! don't waste time! spend it wisely! better yet, spend it with her! she's one in a million, even though there's a lot of fished in the see, it would be hard for you to find the same one over again.

transition of sleep

eyes closed

not a moment to lose

vulnerable to any surprise

mental pictures

like a telly on mute

slowly drifting from reality

opening the world of fantasy

so many wonders on has never seen

defying science like the feeling of zero gravity

as if drugged with ecstasy

suddenly everything feels real

then suddenly you fall

into a dimension called reality

life goes on~

[draft]

moon halo

it was something i shot while i was still stranded in CDO. the sky was bright and there as this giant halo around the moon, although this was not the first. but somehow i was fascinated from the fact that when i was a little booger, i was soooooo interested in astronomy, i wanted to be an astronaut. still everything hasn't change (well, a bit).

i was using a digital camera so the quality isnt nice.

never leave my side, it's what i want you to do

for i cannot last a day without you

as bright as the sun would shine, as blue as the sky

nothing still beats you being by my side

no matter how gray the sky is, or how low the temperature may be

everything may change, but i will try to stay the same

you know i will, because you're special

like the one i'd like to spend it with until i grow old and wrinkle

i want to say the words that you want to hear

or make you feel things you want to feel

sad to say i cant read minds

just sharing some tunes

http://youtu.be/vq6akoG3x2I

this guy i really cool!

[credits to the owner]

592.300147 days of you

a soul who's different from the rest

it's clear to see that she's better than the best

a simple soul that's hard to see

in a sea of faces, she's the one you should meet

so unique, she's tailor made!

all the treasures in the world offered, still i will not trade

she's more than a season, when i write what i feel

she's a heroine, who saves me whenever i'm weak

with her i am out of my armour, vulnerable from her pain

but greater is her amor, more than what has gained

i can never regret every second when i am with her

like riding a carousel, she makes my world twirl

and when i'm away, oh i miss her so

every tic of the clock, i would ask myself "oh why did i ever go?"

she's always on my mind often times she makes me a smile

with just the thought of her my heart beats like a woodpecker

i could never define this love so flavourful

it brings out more colours that a rainbow wheel could

i've fallen for her from the stars to the ground

when i was down, she was the only one around

call me crazy, but im proud to say she's indelibly mine

i'm rightfully her's so go find someone else that you have in mind.

p.s i love you

[will add more soon]