and this is my problem.. this has always been my problem..
so if you think that im so cold because i never show any emotions, think of this..
want to know why? because im scared.. emotions.. this is too intense for me..
when i was little never really had the chance to express myself verbally.. because my opinions was always neglected.. i would just stay silent and would wait for them to ask me what i would think, but that rarely happens.. and ever since then i would have a hard time expressing..
sooooo what happened was.. sublimation!! i would express myself through drawing, writing poems or anything that involves a pen and a paper.. it's the only think i can only do..
[but actions speak louder than words.. and my actions are very loud..]
and it's hard to change this overnight..
so please understand..
im really not a bad soul..
